The Next Step

It was already too late, I was in love with Chris and there wasn't much I could do about it. I've always been the kind of person that has been unable to keep my feelings to myself. If I don't like you.... you will CERTAINLY know about it, same goes for if I do like you or in Chris's case... love you. I had to tell him, but I was afraid that if I said "I love you" to him he wouldn't say it back and I'd be left with a sinking feeling of hurt. I had been in a situation not to shortly before I fell for Chris where that exact scenario happened and it kind of scarred me. So what I decided to do was leave a message for him on AIM. I put a whole bunch of lyrics to love songs, can't remember which ones, and highlighted certain letters in certain words. Altogether the highlighted letters spelled "I love Chris" that way if he didn't say anything back I could trick myself into thinking maybe he didn't see it or maybe he didn't realize what it said. I walked away from the computer for hours, ate dinner, watched TV, spent time with my family, etc. I'm not sure exactly how long I waited, but I was surprisingly patient, I didn't want to come back and see nothing. But a few hours later, I came back and to my delight I found a similiar message to me saying "I love Mindy" and that was that. Now we had to make it official, but first I had to come back home from New Jersey.